Easter?

sitting here in the dark, my brain started to wander. last night about 2000 years ago, HE hung on the cross, then was put into the tomb, and now we wait, only about 7 more hours before HE rose again then about 40 days later HE went into heaven. I say all this because this is the story of easter, not that bull crap about some easter bunny. that’s just a load of crap, it’s almost as bad as evolution because that’s all what young children now a days see easter as. BS. anyways, let’s not go into that now, we’ve been through this many times… it’s just some thoughts that are going on in my crazy mind right now. some people get excited about it, i honestly don’t, i just refuse to deny the truth of what it really is about and what really happened.

a quick change in thought-i just saw Fast and Furious and i thought it was pretty good. i just hate how the story line jumps out of order after the second film. to tell you the truth, the “third” or actually the real fourth file, aka Tokyo Drift shouldn’t even be in the story line. the only way that it makes sense is if you watch “Fast and Furious” before it because that how you understand why Han had to go to Japan and also Dom came back at the end. the rest of the movie is cool, but doesn’t really fit in. i know, i know, with these types of movies, you don’t go for the story line, you go for the car. Great! Kudos! but i also need a decent story line, otherwise we can just look at those cars in a magazine. but all in all i love all the movies.

okay, back on topic- easter to me is just another day, but i know/believe what happened on these 3 days. do you honestly believe that easter is all about a stupid bunny? in fact, why is it a bunny? why not a puppy? or a cat? or even a kangaroo? i’m just saying that certain things are just redunkulous. what easter is REALLY about is the self-willing death of God the Son, not the redunkulous and made up Easter Bunny. well, i should be getting on my way before i say how intellectually deprived (stupid) some people can be. happy easter!  laters!

shapppoooopppieeee

well, since my voice is shot and i can’t finish one of my creative projects (not that i sing better when my voice isn’t shot), i was bored so i decided to make another post. i woke up today with a realization that i can get at least two “B’s” easily. one in my history class, psychology (which reminds me i have to finish my test), and sociology (easiest class in the world), now if only i can bring up my grade in calc. my only hope of getting at least a “C” would be getting an “A” on the final. anyways, enough of school, let’s go onto another topic-work.

well even though i have a chance of raising my GPA back up to a 2.5, i still don’t want to risk a job again so i decided to search high and low for a good computer related job off campus and yet close enough to commute back and forth. first thing that came to mind was the apple store. i thought, hey i love ipods, my g4 powerbook, i wish i had an iphone, i love computers, and i’m pretty good with IT work (even though at times i have to ask myself, what the hell am i doing in a computer science major). so i applied with big dreams, but no hope and low expectations. well better find another idea. man this economy sucks. now i might be horrible with money, but logically i think it would have been better if instead of bailing out people, we could have…ummm…i don’t know, maybe worked on the trillions of dollars that is now our debt. great job obama!!! at least it took bush more than 50-sum days to messed up the US. now granted obama was given this mess, but good great gosh, if we gonna keep going as we are, we are going to become something what we’ve been fighting against. so many lives were lost to prevent what we will become-COMMUNISTS!! great job!!! i wish i could just move to spain right now. sure i only speak a little spanish, but at least i’d be in a more logical area on the planet, at least in my opinion.

anyways, getting off that annoying topic of politics, i’ve been getting back into scrubs, ironic how the last episode EVER is to air in may. i love it, it reminds me how i wanted to be a doctor, then when i look at my hands i remember why i didn’t.

anyways, i should be getting back to my test. laters!

and so it begins again…

trying to concentrate on some projects while hearing irritating sounds echoing through the whole house, i realize something. this is my last night before the regular routine starts up again. you know, waking up at 10 going to class, doing school work, going to my other class, then coming home. Gee, that sounds so fun… blah! at least it’s better than staying home all day bored and not doing anything constructive. i also realize that i have to really put the pedal to the metal for this last semester. MUST GET A 2.5 GPA, I MUST!!! i can’t stand having another one of these semesters. let me be more clear by saying that i couldn’t work according to my manager at the new job i got since my GPA was lower than had to be, which means no money, which means not what i need right now. so I MUST GET MY GPA BACK UP. did i mention, i only have about 6 weeks to do it? oh well, the reality is, just sit down and do the work, which i have been getting better with, but still DO THE WORK. that’s all it takes. stop complaining, stop whining, stop using laziness as an excuse, just do what has to be done.

anyways, i just needed to get that off of my chest for now. i’m gonna go get rid of my angst/anxiety somewhere else. Laters!

spring lazy vacation

on spring break, thinking of all that has to be done. all the programming assignments i have to catch up on and even though we did most of the codes if not all during class, i’m still to lazy to put everything together. that’s not to say that i’m not writing any code. since monday i wrote at least 4 programs, even though that’s really only 2 because i copied and pasted my c++ code and put it into java synthax, and it’s now thursday (usually i write 2 to 4 programs on friday). i don’t know, i just don’t enjoy programming when i’m MADE to write a code a certain way. especially when there are more efficient ways to write. but if i was given a project to write, with only the purpose of the program, i’m sure i could make a decent WORKING program. but anyways, all i’m doing is obviously writing my own code (physics equations), watching movies, and of course going onto forums.

blah!!!!!! code…music….ahhh…. i’m decent at both and i love both passionately, but honestly i would want to go into music. there are plans and we shall see!!!!

on a better note: at least i’m getting a little bit more sleep

until next time…Laters!!!

BE YOU

thinking of the last post that i entered, which was a really long time ago, just leads me to say…yeah forget about it, let’s just go onto the next post…

anyways, i hate when people try to break your spirit by making you not want to act on your passions. what i mean is that if you want to do something, do it. don’t just act on emotions though. don’t just go like, “hey! i’m horny, there’s a girl right next to me…” you get my point. if you REALLY want to run or be an actor/actress, then go for it. don’t wait for other’s approval. i mean that is a great test that they do try to do that, but if they succeed in doing so, then you want to do it for others and not yourself. do things because you want to and not for others, cause then you would have a better chance of being happy.

*if you read my other posts, you know i use “you” a lot to help me explain certain things. it’s not meant to be personal towards the reader*

on another note: i don’t think it’s right for others to thing that they are better because they have more money or popularity. everyone is a human, life, so everyone deserves the same amount of respect. it’s not just about “the golden rule”, it’s civil rights. many people fought and lost their lives to protect people rights, which includes respecting each other because they are humans.

anyways, i have to get back to homework, so if you don’t take anything, take at least this: don’t care what other people think, if you want to do something constructive, go for it.

Songs without Passion

Okay, in this entry i’m gonna post my first song for the blog. It’s called “songs without passion” ( i would be very much obliged if no one takes any part from it, even though it’s not really good…)

the lyrics are:

it seems to me
that without you in my life
something doesn’t feel right
i stay awake all throughout the night

i sit down
to try to write
but without you
nothing comes to mind

c-i think i lost it again
my confidence is gone
i can’t seem to write a good song
but to go on without a melody
makes the world seem so empty

i try to write
songs of hope and pride
about the good times
but nothing comes out

and whenever i do finish a song
it comes out no better than
some chicken scratch
with words all scrambled up
and no real topic-c

i try to write
songs of silly little things
but i see how stupid i am
i tried to write songs of politics
but i just realized nobody really cares-c

*this songs is about having the urge to write a song, but not having really anything to write about. it’s a song about writers block.*

WHAT THE HECK?

going through some of my e-mails, i realize how angsty i can get. not because of spam, but because of what some things that people can do. things that annoy me:

1! people who add to the rules, thinking it will stop chaos and confusion, but only making things more chaotic and confusing.

2! weird bodily noises. i don’t know why it’s just some of them irritate me.

3! civil issues for ALL

4! bad drivers

5! arrogant people

6! when people don’t think before they do something<<<<that’s a big one that annoys me

but on an upside, thinking of those who truly believe that we “evolved” from gue or some crap like that makes me laugh because to sound so passionate about things that are so unrealistic is so hilarious. don’t get me wrong believe what you would, but that to me sounds so redunckulous that it makes me laugh.

catch up

Finishing up my grilled cheese sandwich, i got to thinking of what MAKES the whole sandwich-Ketchup. It all started when i was baby, i would through up all my food (i had[have] stomache issues), until one day, we went to the most disgusting place in the world, well one of them-McDonald’s. then as i grew older my stomache wouldn’t make enough acid, so the doctor told me to start eating that red, sugary, delicious stuff. Why am i talking about my obsession of ketchup you may ask. well because my brain just works that way, so deal with it. now it did start to work, but being OCD to an extent, nobody knew i wouldn’t be able to stop eating it. i mean i did go to bbq sauce then to sweet and sour, but ketchup is a classic. it’s so good for pretty much anything you can think of. by the way, don’t try it with tomato soup, it’s just more sugar and fat. don’t get me wrong i love sugar, but it’s cool to be healthy. SO BECOME A VEGETARIAN. it’s awesome i love being a vegetarian, despite my picky preferences for fruit and vegetables. speaking of which, i’m in the mood for a piece of watermelon. WATERMELON IN THE MIDDLE OF FEBRUARY? yes, but where to find them… who knows.

on a side note: I LOVE NICK AND NORAH’S INFINITE PLAYLIST. not just because kat dennings is in it, but because it’s a great movie all over. specially since the story line is so familiar to many of us, well plus or minus, but everyone gets their heart broken and somehow, eventually gets back up.

also, soon to come, are a couple of lyrics that I WROTE, so i would appreciate it if nobody takes them, not that they’re any good, but that is my art. some will be just lyrics, some might even be a demo of that mp3. you can go to my purevolume site, which is provided in the external links part of this site, to listen to my other crappy songs.

anyways, enough of my rambalings of my mental issues and my obsession for ketchup. Laters!

Plagiarism or just bad coincidence

Okay so today it was a pretty laid back day, until five minutes before I went to grab a bite to eat. My [Psychology]professor e-mailed me saying that there were a couple of things wrong with my homework, one of them was “plagiarism”. Now I understand how plagiarism is not cool. As a song writer one of my worst fears is that someone might take my songs and make them their own, even though they’re not very good, but you get the picture. Now for homework you can use the book right, so when I went to Wikipedia to get some more information about the subject, it’s automatically plagiarism? ummmm… okay…. ?_? what the hell? I wasn’t trying to get the answers off of someone else plus if you think that, that is plagiarism, then what is taking the answers from the textbook? If you ask me, that sounds a little hypocritical. Anyway, I apologized to him cause I like Psychology and I want to earn the credits now plus I might want to go into music, but I want my degree first, so I can’t afford to get expelled. He still hasn’t responded to me yet. So is it plagiarism or is it just a bad coincidence? by the way that’s just one question that going on through my mind, so you guys don’t have to answer that question.

i have entered

Greetings, after thinking, looking at a couple of blogs, questioning the reasons, and of corse obsessing over Kat Dennings, I have finally entered this artistic world of blogging.  Now I want to make sure that I don’t sound like I’m whining, but you can take this however you would.   I plan on just writing my day to day events and random thoughts of insanity.   In other words, you might find a lot of rambullings of stupid crap, but also some intricate thoughts, so I hope everything goes well.