Florida 2010

On the way back home to New Jersey, I reflect on the times I had in Florida. Good, bad, interesting, and fun, but however you would name the moment, it was still an experience that was worth having.

Let’s start with the departure from New York. It was smooth, relaxing, and boring, with the flight crew constantly interrupting the movie I was watching. So in other words, it was like having a moment with your lover while the kids keep appearing for some stupid reason. Okay, maybe it wasn’t that unpleasant, but it was quite annoying.

Next, was the arrival in Orlando. Let me start out by saying that Orlando is one of my favorite cities in Florida. I say this as a whole and I’m not just referring to Disney World. It’s hot and humid with an occasional breeze (just like the rest of the state), but it’s the people that really catch my attention. Warm and welcoming with a down to earth state of mind. The night we arrived, (I was traveling with my father), my dad was trying to learn the roads of Florida. So in other words, we spent about an hour trying to figure out where to go for the hotel, then getting to the hotel was about another half hour. Needless to say, we arrived in my piece, but when we arrived to the hotel, everything was locked. Now, any time I arrived at a hotel at night, the doors have always been open and there was someone prompt and ready to check you in. We spent another fifteen minutes trying to get the attention of this guy who was suppose to take care of us, while giving us this attitude as if we interrupted something important. Despite my bias against this one guy, I do not base everyone in Florida on this one person’s attitude. Like I said, everyone else was the exact opposite. I neglected to mention that along with each city comes an illness. Orlando was the city where I had horrible stomach cramps and acid reflex. Along with stomach issues, I was also working off bad toothaches. This fact is very important for another section.

Now we go onto Tampa. Tampa was also one of my favorite cities, with it’s vast art scene. It also has an amazing history center and a few science museums that are worth going to. The Dali museum is one of my favorites. Most people say that he was a surreal artist, I call him a gothic artist because depute the fact that he took realistic objects and put them in a different state, the state that he put them in were melancholy and dark, much like as you would see in an old movie about the dark ages. This city also had an illness. The day we went to the Dali museum, I woke up with what I refer to as vertigo-dizziness, headache, and nausea. I am quite familiar with this feeling, but only with alcohol, but I hadn’t drunk any alcoholic beverage the night before. Then the last night we were there, again I had horrible toothaches, so me being excessive compulsive,also a complete idiot, I pop 4 pain pills. Granted, I felt great, numb and completely relaxed, but when I woke up the next morning, I wake up to HIVES and tight muscles in my legs. In all honesty, I’m still working on these two things as I’m writing this post.

As I said, I screwed up and now I’m having an allergic reaction and now we are heading towards Naples. Have you ere heard of Naples, Florida? Yeah, I haven’t. My perception of Naples was that it was small, with not much to do.

So we headed out to the Everglades. The only real reason why we stopped by the Everglades was to go on an air boat ride, which ended short due to bad rain. Now, Florida has beautiful weather, despite the humidity, but when it rains, IT RAINS. So much water went into my shoes that it felt like I was in a pool, but it was worth it.

Next was Miami. Now, I hope my bias does not aid in any decision in going to this place, but I have to be honest. I did not like Miami at all, this could have been an effect of my allergy reaction, but personally, I don’t really see what the big hype is. There’s not much to do other than go the beach shop for expensive clothes, or party. Beach, I couldn’t really do, shopping, I’M ON VACATION, which means I’m here to enjoy the sites, not buy clothes, and party, well, let’s just say I don’t really party, nor was it in the proper setting. So the rest f you can go, but I don’t really plan on going back to Miami. Granted, the girls are hot in their small bikinies- that’s like saying Bob is the smartest in a group of mentally handicapped children. Besides, I bet most of them would bend over for a cookie. My other problem with the people is that most of them are self-centered and there’s too much of public drunkenness. Don’t get me wrong, I get drunk myself, but not in public. Have some pride in your person and try to prevent that in public.

Then there was Fort Lauderdale. Great city, much like a combination of Tampa and Miami. Let me ellaborate- the people were friendly and there were quite a number of things to do, but what they had in abundance were shopping malls and yahoo sailing.

Lastly, at the airport. Now there’s not much that I can say about this particular airport, which I can’t say about any other airport. Granted, they are trying to prevent drug smuggling and terrorism, but it seems as if they go overboard. I mean, my dad bought A HAIRBRUSH that looked like a switchblade. He even showed it to them before going through and the douchebags still spent twenty freaking minutes trying to see if my dad is a terrorist. Again, DOUCHEBAGS. I understand them taking my actual knife, but they expected me to pay $30 extra for a knife that I bought for $20. Toss it. Let me explain by saying that along with our computer bags, we also had our carry ons with our clothes, which we had to check anyways because the flight was so freaking overbooked. Let me end this section by saying that airports are airports and we all had our ridiculous experiences with them.

Overall, I enjoyed myself in the sunshine state, but now it’s time to go back to my old, grumpy, and senile clients, even though I wished I didn’t have to, considering my present state…..

Anyways, laters!!!!!

Give me tranquility

having a stressful week of work, i noticed i havent posted for some time again…

first off, like i said, its been a stressful two weeks at work. not hard just a lot of stuff has to be done in such a short time and thats just for half of my priority. not to mention the computer work.

any ways besides work, things have been going great. it feels awesome to be a second semester junior and life in general is interesting.

so since i dont have much to say, well, at least not gerting too personal, i would like to post some random information.

AS A WARNING PLEASE DONT TAKE THE FOLLOWING THE WRING WAY. THE PURPOSE OF THE FOLLOWING IS INFORMATIONAL AND I AM NOT TRYING TO SAY DO THIS OR THIS IS WHAT I BELIEVE, even though i do agree with this philosophy…

The number 108 can be found by the following formula.
6 senses of Eyes, ears, nose, mouth, skin and the mind
x 3 aspects of time (past, present, and future)
= 18 x 2 characteristics of one’s heart (pure or impure). Good or evil based
on
one’s karma. = 36 x 3 preferences a person may ( like, dislike or be indifferent)

have to something he perceives through the 6 senses. = 108 potential conditions
of
one’s desires. As practices his heart and desires become pure by purifying
the 6
sense organs. Nichiren Daishonin states “Regard purification of the 6 sense
organs
as benefit. I, Nichiren and my disciples can receive this benefit by chanting
Nam
Myoho Renge Kyo.” By this process we develop the correct perception through
the
action of the Daimoku ( one meaning of Daimoku is concentration- Dai and
eyes or
vision- moku), focusing one’s eyes or perception on the objective truths
of life
(Gonhozon) – shoho jisso ( all phenomena reveal the true aspect of life).
Nam (
subjective mind and body) – the 6 senses or the 5 components used to practice-

fusion to Myoho Renge Kyo , which is everything we see as a common mortal

viewed from impurity in the 9 worlds, and viewed from purity as a Buddha
in the
10th world. Palms together over the heart symbolizes the fusion of Kyo and
Chi.
Objective truth (Law) and subjective wisdom ( faith in the Gohonzon)-Buddha
as
self. The 2 large beads at each end are the parent beads that symbolize this,
being
the father on the left (Myo)- the Law and the mother on the right (Ho)- wisdom
of
the Buddha. Our 10 fingers together symbolize the mutual possession of the
10
worlds, which fuse together and manifest simultaneously in the life of a
Buddha. As
opposed to a common mortal who manifest one world at a time (ie. Hell, anger,

rupture, learning ect.) On the Gohozon all 10 worlds are represented for
this
reason all at once.
The 4 smaller beads are the leaders of the Bodhisattvas. Covering the 4 Bodhisatvas

and the 108 beads representing desires with our hands in prayer symbolize
the
principle – Bonno soku Bodai, which is portrayed as the deity Aizen on the
middle
left side of the Gohonzon. This can mean earthly desires transform into
enlightenment. Aizen is often seen with 6 arms which serve as a means of

encouraging the believer by offering benefits ( desires) to support one’s
path of
faith.
The Fugen sutra states, “you do not need to extinguish your earthly desires
and
throw away your 5 desires. Only when you are able to purify your senses,
will your
offenses from your past lives disappear.”
The long tassels mean our chanting is spreading to the world- Kosen Rufu.
The 3
groups of 10 beads equal 3000 realms at this moment of life. The 5 balls
and the
pot shaded beads keep our benefits. The priest have 4 long extended balls
which
symbolize their status as teachers to share their benefit. #The beads receive
the
eye opening ceremony in front of the Dai Gohonzon by the High Priest so that
they
become the entity (body and mind) of the Buddha in our life to practice to
the
Gohonzon.

well i hope you enjoyed this post. untill next time, laters!!!

Spring 2010

Watching Pawn Stars, I decided to give an update on this “interesting” semester.

First off, the grades that I got:

OS:C-
PL: F?
Physics: B-

Still to come Philosophy and a discussion with Ndjatou(PL)

Now, I felt that I did better in PL, considering that I know quite a number of programming languages, but for some reason my professor gave me an F in that class. Hopefully, he’ll end up responding to my email so that we can figure this out, but he rarely responds to his emails. The worst thing that can happen is that I would have to spend one more class with this asshole and then the rest of my educational path would be a breeze.

Parents are still in Romania for one last week. It seems like just yesterday that they left for their 3 week vacation. Gosh, these past 3 weeks were great and peaceful, but I think I’m ready to have someone else clean dishes for me.

Anyways, just a short update. Back to washing clothes and watching the History Channel. Laters!

freak out!!!!

Watching Attack of the Show, I reflect on the day and how things usually don’t turn out the way you expect it….

I tried to make today a relaxing and orgasmic day by staying home during the day, but it was quite the opposite. I tried to sleep in, but around ten, which is early for me since I’ve been non-stop for the past 2 months, I started getting emails from work. They were pay stubs. Money? Yeah, sounds glorious, but it was MUCH less than what I thought I was getting since I calculated my hours * pay -(.07*(hours*pay)) the day before. At first, I was kind of disappointed because I worked my ass off and I barely got the money for it. Then I realized it’s only money, nothing more, nothing less, just currency.

Is that it? I wish I could say this was the end, but unfortunately life’s a (female dog).

So then I go to prepare for my class, hoping I could just hang out with my friends, but as soon as I get in, I’m told there was homework. I start freaking, when I saw what it was, I started freaking even more. I “got it done”, but my nerves were still shot. So class started. First thing he does-give back the last test. How’d I do? Well, it was my highest grade, but my test average is still probably in the mid 40′s. I’m not proud of it, i’m just saying. What class is this for? Operating Systems. Now, I know I’m a pretty good programmer and I’ve been working with computers all my life, but it seems like school is making me feel like a complete moron. He eventually let out out about 45 minutes earlier, but for what? Tonight was the night I realized the pure and honest truth-I have no chance in passing my Computer Science courses. I mean I have one more test left,the two finals, and a few projects left, but there’s is no chance I can pass the finals and still keep the little sanity I still have.

It seems like it’s a pattern-I have a completely crappy semester and then I can this AMAZING semester, when I actually feel like I can accomplish something, but then the next semester puts me in a state of mind where I feel like I’m a complete failure and I should just put myself out of my misery. I’m not suicidal, I would actually never kill myself because I’m SCARED to die. I believe everyone is, even if they don’t want to admit it, but it’s just a realization of how pathetic of a human being I am.

Then there’s also the fact that I’m still in major debt with my dad for the past three years and I can’t even get my summer job back at school, where I would make a BIG bulk of my pay check

I don’t know what else to say. This feels like a bad trip without the acid. Anyways, I’ll stop my ranting before I start saying stupid crap, not like anyone cares anyways.

I hope the rest of you have an amazing night. Laters!

My Good Bye

hey guys, here’s another song for my grandpa.

My Good-Bye

it’s been a while
since i last saw you
and even then
i was a prick
and now i feel
like a complete dick

it’s been a year
since you moved on
to a better place
free of pain
and even though
i wouldn’t liked to
i never even got the chance
to say good-bye

so here is my chance
i’ll write you a simple melody
sing it out loud
to make sure you can here clearly
no matter how deep in the sky
i’m almost sure you’d be able to pick out my voice in the winds
hope to see you again,this is my good-bye

and even though your’re gone
your legacy remains
with every story told
every picture will unfold

R.I.P. Tata. It’s been a year since you left, but you will never be forgotten.

Spring Break And so much more

watching the simpsons like any other sunday, i realized i haven’t posted in a long time so here’s an update of everything:

Spring break:

i pretty much worked all day for 5 days and then lost sleep for the other 2. it was amazing though because the weather was gorgeous.

after going back to school it was a pretty tough week. 3 tests in one day and a physics write lab write up. we then got another lab write up, but luckily enough this one will be easier. thursday was the toughest because of some drama, but then it all became smooth again. work on saturday was probably the best work day in a long time.

school:

with the semester about to close up, we have four big projects to do in about a month and a half and then a philosophy paper. i’m not nervous about philosophy because it’s in my interest, but even though i love computers, the four projects are kindda nerve wrecking. physics is going great as well, i just have to worry about my two computer classes. i shall post about that later.

what else is going on:

well, there’s a lot of personal things that are going on, but none of which i will post on my site. we already have a site for posts which nobody cares about-livejournal.com

Spring 2010

watching some old seasons of the simpsons, i realized i haven’t keeping up with my posts. that should tell you something about the level of class work and computer work i have on my plate, but here’s what’s going on for the most part, which i don’t mind sharing.

school:

everything’s okay i guess. i mean i had four hard tests last week and i know i bombed two of them. one i got a b and the other i have a feeling i passed, but not sure with what. one of the tests i bombed was in calculus 2, now if you know anything about me and math, you’d understand the next statement, if you don’t here’s the explanation-I SUCK MAJOR IN MATH, but with technology and science i know i’m good at. that being said, i think you’ll understand why i plan on dropping that course, since i started off on a bad foot and there’s so much i have to catch up on and i want to try to save my gpa since it’s a 2.4, which i’m proud of after having a 1.9. it’s also official that i’m a philosophy minor. i love philosophy-i’m in love with it for so many reasons, which i don’t feel like listing because we’d be here all night and i’m exhausted. actually, i think i might be getting sick again. besides that, school is school, since it’s college, it’s not that bad, but i’d rather sleep in or at least make money doing something i love. that being said…

work:

we’re starting to grow as a company and i’m even working of a work order system via php. don’t ask me to make it for you because this is for a company purpose and if you wish to have something like that, then i’d have to charge you for it and since it’s not an easy task, it won’t be for cheap either. sorry, but that’s the tech world and i don’t work for free.

just as an added note, i also added a couple new songs on my purevolume account, if you guys are interested in listening to them. they’re not punk or rock, but i’m just experimenting with some stuff. now i might prefer hardcore punk music to listen to, but i never said what type of stuff i would mix, so deal with it. for the link to my account, please visit my links section or click here

anyways, it’s getting late and i have to finish washing my clothes and go to bed.

until next time, laters!!

court

so today was the big day. the day started like any other. i went to all my classes and i had a study session for physics. when i got to the court it wasn’t that bad at first, but then about an hour later, it was so bad that i wished i was in a dentist’s office. i had all types of sounds all around me and the smells of nicotine and curry. and not just any regular sounds, but all the sounds that irritate me.

anyways, so i walk up to the prasicutor and he says that in his 15 years of working, never has an officer went up to him and told him that this kid is a good kid so be nice.

so then the judge called me up about thirty minutes later and pretty much told me that i am walking on very thin ice because i am very close to getting my license provoked.

now the ethics that i had on my mind for about a month. the main reason that i was let off so softly is because my neighbor is one of the coolest police officers and he talked to the police officer that pulled me over. luckily enough they were friends, but still, i don’t see how this is very ethical.

now, you might be thinking, “shut up dude, just be grateful” and believe me i am, but there’s still a level of immorality i see in it. for three hours i spent watching how the others weren’t getting any big breaks. why me? that’s all i want to know. why me and not one of the other 40 something cases? just because we’re neighbors with an officer? that’s another thing, i don’t believe in pba cards because that’s pretty much saying, “do whatever you want with no consequence” just because you’re friends with an officer. here’s a thought—-why not be friends with a cop without the benefits? after all, isn’t that the definition of friendship, not using someone for a means to an end? that’s actually the definition of immorality and yet many of us do it….

so why me and not one of the others?

History Final and Final GPA

Okay so i finally received my grade back from my history class. i earned an a which brings my gpa to a 2.4. it’s not a 2.5, but it’s much better than a 1.9 or something like that.

other than that, my court date is quickly nearing, next week to be exact, and my nerves are still up there. our neighbor did talk to the officer (which i have a few things to say about later on) and he said that something could be done. i don’t know what and i probably wouldn’t be in the position of telling you if i did.

my first week of classes just went by and it was pretty good. i’m actually excited. for my goals, they haven’t really changed from the summer goals, since they worked and i want to keep progressing in my studies. in other words, school comes first then work.

anyways, i’m pretty tired so i should run. until

next time, laters!!!

All i see is ravens

after seeing the blind side for the second time, I made it official- I’m gonna start watching American football, specifically Baltimore ravens football.

the story overall is very inspirational and just enforces my belief that everything is possible, regardless of how one believe as such. personally I believe if you want it bad enough and put your whole heart into it, then everything is possible. I especially love how the movie is bases on a true story.

that being said, my favorite athlete is Michael oher. you gotta give the guy props for being that good regardless of his background. his family isn’t perfect, but they are loving and completely supportive to all their kids.

ravens ravens ravens all I see is ravens…..

until next time. later!